Do-Overs

Ever really wondered what it is all for? Have you wished that you have been granted one "do-over" in life? Would you even use it? I had a few friends over this past week, one of whom I really enjoy having a conversation with because he asks interesting questions. Sipping on our drinks he asked me if I would do it all again, would I use a do-over in life. Of course I thought in an immediate reaction to his question yes I would, but the more I thought about it the more my hesitancy grew. To do it all over again, that would mean I would be erasing my character that I have today. Granted there are times without a moments hesitation I would have made better decisions, picked better friends, and aimed higher then I did. I guess that sounds like I would use a do-over! But when it comes down to it, because I chose in areas poorly, I also chose wisely in others. Even if I used a do-over it isn't a guarantee that I would make better choices. It would be a new slate, that would inevitably be tarnished with bad decisions. Hindsight is always 20/20, and is a blessing and a curse. After much consideration, I said no I don't think I would use a do over. I am what I am today because of the decisions and experiences, I would erase my character rather it would be better or worse on a chance of something that is a maybe. The more I think about it, we do have a do-over. Every morning I wake up I have a do-over. A chance to try something different to learn from past mistakes and to aim higher is what each day is presented with. Such possibilities is what makes up life. A trail and error so to speak. So I do a do over every time I crawl my lazy ass out of bed. What can I do that is better then yesterday. What goals have I set for myself. I am trying not to do the old cliche of 'where do you see yourself in 5years' for some reason I think that is a set up for failure to me. Its all I can do to get through the day with the things I want to accomplish. (especially if you have a child that is in constant need of attention!) So my do-overs are short, day-by-day experiences. Of course I day dream of what it would be like if I never married, or had a kid. I see friends of mine with great career success and envy them just a little. I have always thought that would have been my path. I guess it takes a certain kind of strength to be the different one, and continue down the road that I have chosen. All in all, life is a constant do over, how we chose to use these is entirely up to us. Good, bad, or ugly the responsibility is ours alone.